MeteorDreams

2012-01-25T22:20:00.001+08:00

Huimin how? My skills not bad right, my hair is blue colour and yours is gold :) and we have lipsticks on :)

Fate

2012-01-24T12:45:00.002+08:00

Bear with me, it's goanna be a long post.

First of all, I've deactivated my twitter account. I think it's still up and they said in the T&C that it takes 30 days for the account to be entirely deactivated, so right now if you were to go do a search on my profile, it's probably still goanna be up there.

The reason being, I realised twitter is for people to go there and blabber out Emo shit stuff. I have now realised(albeit a little late) that people just go out there and post Emo quotes and reading those tweets made me feel even more emo wtf.

I wanna be happy and live my life, for these few days I know I can. So bye twitter, I don't wanna go close to crap things. Maybe when I feel that twitter is not about all these then I will go back, but for now, youtube <3 although still full of rubbish as well but I am building my youtube empire slowly, so currently only busy with my youtube account.

Okay next, I have always wanted to write about someone and I just have to get it pen down today, just have a urge to do so.

ps: Do not think too much, I am no way romantically in love with him. We've become family friends :) I'm so glad to have friends that are like my family. Huimin you are also one of them, my family friend :)

I first met you at Piano's Welcome Tea. It was my first time to CFA, Centre for the Arts studio at Raffles Hall. It was my first time to CFA and I don't even know where the main entrance was. After walking around like a noob for 10 minutes searching for it, I finally went in. Walking around like a fool again, I could not find the Practice Theatre studio. So I decided to walked straight and I found it.

I went into PT studio and there was only 4 newcomers inside. I just sat on one of the chairs, on the second row beside this girl. It's so weird that I still remember every single detail that happened 6 months back. Then, more and more newcomers came in. Itold myself that I'll just attend this welcome tea, since I needed a CCA if not I only have 3 tuition sessions a week and it makes me feel bored. A girl in a dress then stood up and went to the front, introduced herself as the president and there was a guy who stood beside her, and that was you :)

Nicole said, "This is XXX, the Vice-President and you guys may remember him from the second day of the matriculation fair."

I don't know why, I just needed to know you.

Then, Nicole said there will be a piece of 6 hands piano being performed. Then, Kelvin(the ex-President, during that time I didn't know him), Nicole and you went to the piano and played. My eyes was glued to you, I have always liked it when guys play the piano because they look really cool. I cannot recall how Nicole and Kelvin played, but I only remembered you, I really liked it.

Then, Michelle(the student music director) introduced herself and said newcomers must audition to get into Piano. It struck me. My piano teacher said that I do not play well and I even took my grade 6 twice. I took my grade 6 in secondary 1 and during that time, I was a rebellious kid because it was the transition to secondary school and I hanged out with the wrong group of friends. Thus, I knew that I will not get through auditions because I'm quite cui at piano. Then Michelle said, feel free to talk to any seniors in the room if you have any questions.

Then, I walked up to you. Someone was talking to you and I just waited at the side. There were so many seniors in that room but I just wanted to talk to you. Then I asked you, "How will auditions be like? My piano is very cui(Yes I used this word) and I don't think I can get in leh."

You replied, "Nevermind la, just sign up and try. If I'm not wrong, the set piece will be the one that I played last year for auditions."

This was exactly what you said.

Then I said okay with a smile and went off.

The following week, when the set piece was given to us to practice for auditions, I practised like crazy. I put in 3 hours every single day for the entire week to make sure I played that piece well. I told myself I just needed to get into Piano. That week, I also went for choir auditions.

Then during the weekend, I received results for both choir and piano. I got my choir results first, and I wasn't accepted. So I knew I wasn't going to have CCA for the entire sem, since my piano is cui and I don't think I'll get in. The next day, I received an email from Piano.

I FUCKING GOT IN PIANO! I was so fucking shocked lor I straight away text my dad because he also knew the chances of me getting in is 20%. I was so happy that I didn't get in choir and I got in piano, because I can get to know you and hang out with you from now on :)

First session of CCA was on Friday. I went in late and so Nicole just asked me to join a group that needed people. I went to this group and just stood there, not knowing anyone. Then, you came to the group and said you'll be the leader for the group :) Omg do you know how happy I was? :)

Week after week, every Friday after sessions, we just talked. I added you on Facebook and realised we had so many mutual friends. So we talked about our mutual friends.

Then came EMCC concert in week 9. At backstage, we were in different rooms. Your room was beside mine, and do you know how I much I wanted to go to your room and find you? Then just before the concert, at 7pm, you came to my room :) I was so happy inside :)

Things died a little when exams came, and suddenly my SS tutor pops up. Okay that's another story that I do not want to write here because it will make my post so damn long. After exams, I was so happy that I will be playing with you for the Esplanade concert :) For the first 2 weeks of December, we practised together, of course with Weiqi as well. There was once my dad fetch you after practice to your sister's place. This was how close we are, like family friends :)

The concert ended, things died down again. Now, you are playing for Touch concert which I decided to pull out. Also, you have 11 students taking piano exams in March and 6 students taking theory exams. Things have already died down between us and we no longer text each other like we used to. Sometimes we text each other continuously for 3 to 4 days.

I don't want our friendship to just die away, and now it has.

I just want to thank God for the beautiful memories for the past 6 months.

2012-01-17T15:58:00.003+08:00

Dedicated to whoever that watches this vid .xoxo ai lin

Anw, my friend just posted this link on her fb, omg sooooo sweet!! to me, true love doesn't exist but watching this give me some hope:)) Not sounding desperate here but the guys that I met are all jerks!!! God have been blessing me with loads of things in life: like I'm always doing okay in school, always doing okay with other things like swimming and piano, blessed me with good parents and happy family, that I can travel, but He took away one thing in my life in exchange for all these: my romance life. I will just follow the path that God laid for me, I will not force myself to walk a path that He thinks I should not even touch.

Yes I'm still a free thinker, don't worry that will never change. People who know me well will know that I have a super strong stand for being a free thinker, hahahaha and it's not by choice that I'm a free thinker. It's by default lol.
But in times like this, when I need comfort for the things that I don't have, I turn to God for the answer.

2012-01-14T13:26:00.004+08:00

Recently, I'm crazy about Poppin Cookin so here are some of the more AWESOMEZZZZ ones for you all :)

This bento set is just OMG!!!!!

AND FINALLY, MY FAVOURITE CREPE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)))) Mega love .xoxo

Anw I just read xiaxue's latest post, I recommend that you read it too... I love how she described her feelings out so clearly and I can totally understand cuz I feel the same way right now, totally worth your 5-10 mins to read it. http://xiaxue.blogspot.com/2012/01/cavernous-vagina.html

Okay if you are born being those kind of girly-type-of-girl and men will just wanna fall for you cuz they feel like taking care of you, I've got nothing to say. God just blessed you with that. But if you ACT and you're not born to be that kinda girls.... I really cannot stand you.

I hate the way girls act to be really pitiful and need people to love them. Super hate hate hate, like wtf is wrong with you? If you all really get together and get married, you wanna act like a bitch your whole life??? You're not being true to yourself and you don't deserve this life that God gave you! So Fake and Artificial!!!!!!!

2012-01-07T02:06:00.001+08:00

jia you everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :))

xoxo ai lin :)

2012-01-02T03:11:00.002+08:00

MEmories that keeps me going!! This is what life is about:))

2011-12-31T00:13:00.000+08:00

please support my first video on my youtube channel!!!!

2011-12-25T23:28:00.003+08:00

I'm blogging from my room in Malacca. Today we went to melaka dataran pahlawan and makota parade and jonker street to walk.... Boring ttm.

Anw after my bangkok trip shopping spree, I came back to Sg and bought a nude ballet flats and 2 rings. Then today in Malacca I bought slippers again. my 8th pair of slippers.

I hereby announce I will be taking a break from blogging.

Hmm 2012... time to chiong for my studies. I have been getting 3.8 for 3 consecutive semesters. I think I break record already. I don't wanna see 3.8 anymore, I am just sick of being stuck there. Getting above 4, here I come.

When sem starts, I will also be taking a break from fb. Prolly goanna have to do it... I haven't done it before, but I know it will be good for me.

Til I return, you guys will be missed.

Love you all xoxo.

2011-12-24T22:30:00.002+08:00

Went to orchard today! Recently I'm dressing up a lot omg I just love wearing nice clothes out hahahhaha. Bag and shorts and necklace from Bangkok, top from JB, shoes from ion orchard, brown cadigan from Vogue.

Going to Malacca now whoooohoo! Can't believe i'm only in Singapore for 1.5 days and I went out with my best friend during my 40 hours in Singapore????

Malacca here I come :D

Travel Review: Bangkok, Thailand.

2011-12-23T20:45:00.017+08:00

It's the holidays!!!!!!!!!!

I just came back from Bangkok yesterday so I decided to blog about it before I forget the details that happened during the trip. I was so glad to be there with the awesome company of my JC classmates :) They are the people who are so true and genuinely love you for who you are, who accepts you for your shortcomings and to encourage you when you need it.

Reached Changi airport Terminal 1 at 6am, our flight was at 8.15am. We were so hungry in the departure hall that we bought doughnuts for breakfast :)We took polaroids as usual!Took Thai Airways there! Omg didn't expect Thai Airways service to be so goood!!!!! I love flying with Thai Airways and I'm goanna go back to them the next time I go to Thailand!Flying with friends, simply awesome! :)))) We were making so much noise in the plane and photo bombing the everyone kept staring at us hahahahhaha.With me and my DSLR around, expect this kind of photo :)Breakfast on the plane :)After we landed, there was a transfer provided from the airport to the place we are staying, Centre Point Petchburi 15. The service apartment is so awesome one I'm goanna update you guys. They have super great service and a back door which you can exit from, 5 mins walk to Platinum Fashion Mall. Also, about 5 mins walk to the all time favourite, Pratunum Market, something like Bugis Street but all the clothes are around $4-$6. Bugis kind of clothes, mad cheap. I buy until I can't stuff everything into my suitcase, and had to hand carry up the plane because my check in luggage is already 20 kg, the limit for Thai Airways. After we settled down, we went to Platinum Fashion Mall!!!!!! Didn't take any photos there because I am afraid of getting robbed, it isn't as safe as Singapore and throughout the 4 days, I always carried my bag in front. Platinum Fashion Mall is like Far East, with lots of small shops selling clothes. Women from Level 1-4, mens only on Level 4. Level 5 is mainly accessories and Level 6 is a food court. We had dinner there the first night :) Quite cheap. I ate bento set for only 65 Baht?? That's $2.80 for bento set!!!!! Mad cheap.We are Crisp before that. It is around 3 mins walk from Centre Point Petchburi, along the way when walking to Pratunam:) NICE!!!!!! We ate crisps for lunch everyday omg.We choose chocolate with banana!!!!!!!! Very generous amount of banana compared to the Crisp we bought from level 6 of Platinum Fashion Mall food court. So in the end we kept buying from this stall only :))))))Walking on the overhead bridge back from Platinum Fashion Mall, it's just opposite where we stay. Prices of clothing at Fashion Mall is around $6-$15, slightly more expensive than Pratunum Market where everything is $4-$6 for clothes. Min 3 pieces so it's best to go with friends :)))) Then can share when buying cuz most of them don't sell 1 or 2 pieces, if they do, prices are like double of the wholesale price.At night, we went to watch the cabaret show!!!!!!!! OMG they are damn pretty can???? Omg la I can't believe they are guys? We took pictures with them but I can't post it here because of a long story. I want to protect my guy friends as well, so photos are kept private. Of course the rest of the photos on facebook are public but the ones with the cabaret are kept in a private album :)

2nd day morning, we went to Pratunam Market. No photos as well as I didn't bring my DSLR out. So dangerous and Pratunam Market is so busy with people carrying goods and clothes everywhere. Very squeezy but the clothings are cheap!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Go google picture of Pratunam Market if you wanna know how it looks like, really look like Bugis street.

Then in the afternoon, we walk past Platinum Fashion Mall where I described earlier.
We ate at Suki Sushi for dinner!!!!!!! Mad cheap again omg everything is damn cheap. It's about S$9 per person for grilled dinner!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG Naraya!!!!! love the soft purses I bought 2 :)))) Goanna treat one of it as my pencil box for school :)

Outside Central World :) Well central world is like Ion Orchard... They have Uniqlo, Forever 21, Havianas etc.... Very much like Singapore. So we didn't buy anything there but we just walk around. Oh they have a skating ring there so you can skate there if you want :)

Day 3: We went to Pratunam Market again.... Then to MBK where bags are super cheap? Omg la okay everything in Bangkok is super cheap!!!!!!!!!!!!! MBK is like... I would say a more expensive Far East mall?? Hahahaha bags are selling at S$8-S$15 and it's those vintage and colourful kind that I always carry. I bought 5 bags in total!

dinner at MK Korean restaurant, it is located at 2nd floor of MBK, right outside Tokyo Departmental store :)

Love my floral dress? It only cost 120 Baht like only S$5!!!!!! Oh I didn't really bring much clothes to Bangkok. I just buy clothes from there and wear for the next day hahahahhaha :) Must travel smartly like me!

HEHEHEHE Watch the following video to understand this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)) Outside Siam Discovery shopping mall if you are interested where it is located :)

Then we went back to chill!!!!!!!!!!!!!! xDDDDDD

Last day, went to Pratunam Market, Platinum Fashion Mall to do last minute shopping, then went back to Centre Point Petchburi to camwhore again, then to airport!

Coming back home, is really boring. Sigh...... I love going away so much I wanna stay there. But nvm, I'm going to Malacca after I go out with huimin tomorrow. Goanna be back on 28th :) Bye Singapore again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So happy to leave home hahahahahaha.

2011-12-17T20:18:00.003+08:00

♥ to zhiquan and weiqi, thank you so much for the precious memories. To be honest I did not want the performance to end because it means less hanging out with you guys and also next year both of you will be playing for Touch, play your hearts out because I will be supporting you all in the audience ♥ ♥ ♥

Anw today I make a biggest mistake of my life that I don't wish to say it out but deep down inside me I know I am very wrong. Perhaps it will be my greatest regret but I really just want to keep it inside me.... do not ask about it.... deep inside me, it will go away. I need a good rest.

Today I saw someone whom I really respected in the CCA just blow up.... perhaps under times of stress, even the person with the nicest temper you knew on this planet will just blow up. I guess it was really the tremendous amount of stress that was place on this particular person..... Sometimes in the slightest blow up, you affected a lot of people.

Well the concert went well without all these backstage drama.

2011-12-15T00:30:00.003+08:00

Hehehehe show you all my dress for this saturday, nice????

This time i am wearing a dress with half sleeve!!!!! Different from my previous concert at UCC.

Look at the one I wore for UCC one, more lacy kind and a darker tone of purple. The one I'm wearing for this Saturday is brighter and more opaque one cuz it's Christmas season!!! I love wearing bright colours during this happy season :)

Nice not????? If you all think not nice just say okay, then I will find other dresses for future concerts :D

2011-12-10T17:18:00.001+08:00

Went to lisa's place to stayover for 2 nights :) We did a lot of crazy things and I got burnt lol. My skin kept peeling for the past 3 days and today it got better :)

Last wed after practice, z, w and I went to Thai Express at vivocity to eat, then to a dessert place to eat. forgot the name of the cafe but z recommended so we just ate there. Talked about a lot of stuff that I never thought I would bring it up..... cuz we had mutual friends so they became the topic of the conversation. lol.

Anw next few days I'm goanna work out a lot.... concert this sat so I don't want to look cui when performing lol.

I am goanna go gym now.... went gym with my bro on saturday, today gym, tmr evening doing 10km :)

Please come down if you can.

17 December 2011, this Saturday.

NUS Piano Ensemble

Melodias 2011

3pm at Esplanade library

FREE ADMISSION!!!!

2011-12-06T21:46:00.002+08:00

Looking at the email...... I felt my heart suddenly drop. It's the feeling like, when you know you got yourself into deep shit that kind of feeling.

All my friends are playing for touch next march, but I decided to pull out and concentrate on my studies.

I just felt like I'm being left out, but I was the one who pull myself out of the concert.

Tmr I will be practising with z and w, I must treasure my time with them tmr, cos next year I won't be hanging out with them anymore, as both of them are also in touch.

I wish our friendship is not temporary, and after 17 dec I hope we continue to hangout but obviously deep inside me I know, after the concert on 17 dec, we will not hangout together anymore.

I still remember my best friend posted a quote on her facebook that the most impt relationship is the one with yourself.

Friends come and go, but what stays is you, yourself.

If we were to stop hanging out after 17 dec, I wish you 2 all the best, and I will still be sitting in the audience quietly supporting you guys. At least, all 3 of us had cross each other in life. It's more than enough for me to know you all.

❤

2011-12-04T22:11:00.002+08:00

The month of December, being a heavy and gloomy and depressing one, has it's beauty and surprises too :) The sun was awesome today so dad and I decided to go to Upper Seletar Reservoir to walk around. Opposite the reservoir is the Singapore Zoo!!! Can see the back of the zoo from this picture!

walking along.....

We saw this rocket-shape-like viewing tower and we decided to go up.

View from above..

I still love my red highlights

2011-12-02T18:52:00.002+08:00

Highlighted my hair today, I just went to the salon and did it without telling my mother, cos she would never allow it.

I feel like doing adult stuff now, so I want to try something new.

I choose a darker red so it will blend with my black hair, bright red looks very ah lian...

Nice :D

2011-12-01T01:10:00.005+08:00

I didn't swim today, I was too lazy to get my butt off the sofa :( Feel very guilty.

All I did the whole day was doing manicure and pedicure. My nails are mad chio now even my sister says it's nice! She ask me to learn more nail art so I can do for her :)

My nails now are of colours of a darker sky and the deep blue ocean. Each colour takes up half of my nails diagonally and they are separated with shiny flakes from OPI nail polish :)

Use a tape to divide diagonally, I can't find masking tape cos scotch tape is bad for the nails so no choice! Hahahhaa.

Removing it... messy I know.

Apply the other half with a lighter tone of blue :)

Then use the glitter from OPI!!!!!!! Awesome glitters!

And you're done! The nail polish at the side are goanna go off anyways and I'm looking at my nails now hehe the sides gone off in like 3 hours? lol maybe because I keep washing my hands. It's super neat now!

I learnt it from Sophie blog: http://www.sophiewillocq.blogspot.com/

My aim this semester was to see Sophie or Felicia Chin in school, but I saw neither! I feel like asking zq to bring me into his biz lecture next sem so I can see Felicia Chin!!

Anw next week goanna be a crazy week!! I can't wait to see my partners for the performance (zq and wq) I didn't see them since week 12 of school leh! I miss them sooooo much!!!! zq says we are goanna go out after practice :) hopefully on friday night as we have coaching in the afternoon!

Then wed night to friday afternoon I am going to lisa's place to sleepover with qt!!!!! I miss them so much too! I barely see them during the semester lor because of different timetable!

As for hm, I have to wait until the 24th because she is having her IIP! Jiayou girl, it's going to be over soon!!!!

Oh and from 19th to 22nd of Dec, I'm going to Bangkok with my JC friends!!! I am so glad to have my JC friends with me. They are really the ones who care so much for me. I remember after my bio paper back in J2, when I was so demoralised, they actually text me telling me not to worry too much.. And now although we are in different university, they text me to ask me to press on and do my best for exams. Really precious friends and I am so glad to know them in my life.

I really have to go swimming tomorrow, I cannot slack already! I must go back to my tanned skin colour... now my skin colour is like between fair and mild tan, super ugly!!!!! I love being tanned like last time.... swimming here i come! I am goanna sleep now, crazy hours! Tmr wake up and go swimming straight! Cannot procrastinate anymore!

2011-11-29T22:03:00.002+08:00

Now that the exams have ended, and my CAP is confirm going to drop...... It sucks but I don't know what happen, I just cannot do it this semester.

I will update my blog daily, to the best of my ability. I want to note down what I do every single day for my holidays from now onwards, because I want to look back and tell myself I've spent my time well to the fullest, and I'm happy.

Today, I came home and formatted my blog, it looks so much neater now with everything in place. I've also printed out the scores and tried the Primo and Terzo because my friend and I haven't decide which parts we want to take. Both are about the same so I'm okay with either :) I'm packing my closet now, it is so messy and I just grab clothes that are on top to school these few weeks. Now, time to take out the pretty clothes and hang out with friends.

Tomorrow, please let the sun shine over me. I want to go swimming to get some tan because I'm so fair now and I cannot stand it. I love being tanned, and I miss it.

After swimming, I'm going to pack my room. Then, I'm going do 5km.

AIM THIS HOLIDAY: TO SLIM DOWN. Target at 58kg! Current weight: You need not know.

2011-11-28T20:38:00.004+08:00

haiis i freaking can't stand my mom....

seriously she pisses me off every single day.

i try to talk nicely but she just fucking menopause and come home just throw tantrum.

now my dad and sister also fucking cannot stand her already, they just lock themselves in their room everyday when they come home.

I also fucking cannot stand her anymore and it is so fucking annoying i cannot concentrate on my studies so im blogging here.

I am not goanna talk to her anymore, always try to be nice but end up what did I get? She scolds me hopeless cos I don't help in housework. Hello, wtf I have exams you know how fucking stress is it? She says I'm so hopeless I can't even do housework? Dude, you know how fucking stressful it is?

2011-11-25T00:02:00.003+08:00

I saw this photo online..... and I am shocked to say I know schrodinger, pauli, heisenberg, debye, de Broglie, Bohr, Langmuir, Planck, Einstein.

I used the schrodinger equation for CM2101

I use the pauli exclusion principle in JC, CM1101, CM2101

I used the heisenberg uncertainty for my calclations for exam of CM2101

I used the energy difference equation to calculate debye for CM1101

I used the de Broglie for explanation for CM1101 theory

I used the bohr principle to calculate radius of electron

I used the langmuir model to know the percentage of adsorption of heterogeneous catalyst for

my CM2132.

I used the Planck constant for calculations for my exams of CM2101 and CM2132, which is 6.626 X 10^-34. Which I cannot forget in my entire life.

I used Einstein to study relativity theory in physics.

OMG I AM A NERD. Look at what nus did to me.

2011-11-24T00:54:00.007+08:00

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH GUYS?
I AM SO FUCKING PISSED OFF I HAVE TO TYPE IN CAPS AND USE THESE WORDS.

2 incidents happened today. After the dreadful(I will confirm die) organic chem paper, I have 6 hours of break before my SS paper at 5pm.

Yup 2 papers today!

So anyway, back to point. Then this guy came to me while I was sitting down, going through my notes and panicking for SS around 2pm and he said,

"That time I gave you my number, I asked you to call me, but you didn't."

Inside my head, I'm like "Seriously wtf la. Would I be so stupid to give you my number? I don't know what your motive is but rumours spread and every chemistry student knows you're a flirt lor."

And as you all know me.... I freaking cannot stand people who are so religious omg. Yes I am a free thinker but my tolerance is quite high okay. I mean like, I respect you and whatever la but if you try to spread your faith to me, that's it. I'm done with you. I cannot stand people like this, because I don't feel respected. People forcing and sort of propaganda me to join some religious thing cos I'm a free thinker and easy to persuade?

Let me tell you here, just get out of my sight.

Then SS paper was done. Got home, went to Facebook to chill since I'm demoralise so badly today.

Then I got a Facebook message from my tutor. Like wtf again? He told me some weird stuff... like oh I think you're quite pro, I've seen you improved from your first essay.

The thing is for my SS paper today I used the booklet given to me and obviously I needed another booklet right. 100 marks for 3 essay of course I need paper la. Then this particular tutor came and then he passed me the paper. Then like WTF la why must it be him ZZZZZZZZ

So anw back to fb, he messaged me, weird stuff. Then he ask for my number!!!! He's like.. can you give me your number? So that we can meet up after exams.

You are just my SS tutor leh OH MY FUCKING GOD WHAT HAS THE WORLD BECOME??????

Can you all please help me? Since that request he posted, I've never reply him already.

Can I just put "in a relationship" (of course I'm a lonely bird and miserably single) so that guys will not give me problems?

I want to do that..... but I think all my friends will be shocked if I were to put "in a relationship".

Someone good please faster take me leh!!!!! So that I don't have to deal with the idiotic ones once I'm attached.

I couldn't sleep so I looked through old photos and started editing them :) I get hooked onto photo editing for hours I swear. I shall edit all my photos during the holidays :) Feel much better now doing the things I like.... I dont give a damn to guys anymore.

2011-11-21T21:50:00.004+08:00

In the midst of exams now......

thanks for telling me today that it is only a week left..... it gave me hope when the front seemed so bleak....

when i am really tired, your words pushes me on....

im really exhausted.

i need a break.

i am so tired of this kind of study life......... i just want to hang out with friends.

Ganbatte Ai Lin. I must do my best for the rest of the papers. I know I can.

Can't wait for the stupid exams to end..... so i can get back into my vintage photography <3

2011-11-12T21:19:00.002+08:00

Last motivation for the exams.

"If it is important to you, you will find a way. If it isn't, you will find an excuse"

Therer are so many people there that tell you that you can't. What you've got to do is to turn around and say, "watch me."

2011-11-05T18:08:00.004+08:00

OMG I AM SO FREAKING HAPPY AND I HAVE TO SHARE MY ZILLION JOY WITH YOU ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I AM GOANNA PERFORM 6 HANDS PIANO ON 17 DEC AT ESPLANADE LIBRARY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THAT MEANS, 3 PERSON ON ONE PIANO.

MY DREAM CAME TRUE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

PLEASE COME DOWN AND SUPPORT US!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Time:3:00 pm
Date: 17 December 2011, Satuday
Venue: Library@Esplanade
FREE ADMISSION!!!!!!!

I AM SO HAPPY I AM TYPING IN CAPS HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

2011-11-02T23:44:00.001+08:00

OMG I am on youtube!!!!!
Hahahha my ES2007s project!!!!!

Omg i didn't know i speak like that when I'm nervous.

I feel quite embarrassed watching myself on youtube.

Watch me from 4 minutes if you want ;)

Anw 18 more days to finals.

MUGMUGMUG. haiis can't wait for the stupid exams to end.... then i can go highlight my hair, hang out with piano friends(esp you la hahahha i know you always want me to stay with you after session but then i always go home. you alr told me last friday, we goanna hang out a lot more after exams kk!) go lisa's house stayover with qt, go swimming with huimin, go sentosa tanning again, omg so many things to do.....

anw 3 of us are still pushing for a 6 hands piano piece but then they don't allow us to do it leh..... sianz.... i really wanna play 6 hands with you and weiqi!!!!!

2011-10-28T23:54:00.001+08:00

❤
"To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world." - Brandi Snyder

2011-10-28T00:30:00.007+08:00

Enjoy :) The tune that never fails to play continuously in my head when I was in sec 3. I remember playing this piece over and over again everyday when yisiew passed me the piano score. So happy today that I happen to chance upon it again :)

such moments keep me going.

Anw NUSPE going to have Concertino VI tmr! Can't wait to hear all the wonderful piano performance tmr!!!!!!!!!! This time, I can just sit back and relax and not care about the stress of performing! Me is goanna be in the audience :)never ever give up the gift that God gave us to play piano. press on though the practices are tough.

2011-10-16T14:19:00.004+08:00

During last Friday's session, coach taught us about Dies Irae. ( pronounced as dee as yee ray).

I've embedded a piece by Liszt I managed to find on youtube where he added variations of Dies Irae because he knew death was coming.

Dies Irae is a common melody line where composers add to their last pieces and works when they know it would probably be the final and last piece they're writing.

Rachmaninoff included Dies Irae in his pieces too.

What a warm talk from coach on friday..... he had to cope with what happen in his family and also our concert. Such a strong man and he didn't tell us about it until concert is over. Imagine the amount of stuff he have to cope with....

I did a little more research because I was so interested in this terms that I'm being taught.

Surprisingly, the movie, "Matrix" uses the Dies Irae for it's movie trailer too!! Pay close attention to the choir singing Dies Irae words repeatedly!!!.

2011-10-15T17:46:00.006+08:00

i don't know what direction i'm heading.

So I am goanna trust God with my life now....

Perhaps God knows that what is important now is for me to study, that is why he arranged no one to enter my life.

I have been living my life on false hope and I don't even know which part of it are we now. Are we just friends or what? I don't know where are we and whether I should continue with it or just cut myself out of it.

I'm just goanna leave my fate to God's hands and stop imagining and thinking about stuff that won't even happen.

I'm so so so tired of all the shit.

Friday evenings are supposed for me to chill out, yet I see you every friday, and sometimes I know you want me to stay for dinner after piano but I just rush home. Cos I don't know where we are, I don't want to invest too much time and energy. If we were just friends, you wouldn't text me about Friday. Ytd I sat with the girls and then you came by and sat in front of me. I don't know why there were so many chairs around the room and yet you came by. I was happy but I don't even know what's between us now.

I shall trust whatever the plans is being planned for me. Right now brushing up on my cui work is the impt thing. so maybe God wants me to focus on this and ignore the rest.

2011-10-14T23:17:00.003+08:00

On Tuesday, I performed at UCC for piano ensem! How cool is that wahahahhaha xD Finally.... I don't wanna hide it anymore. I used to be very shy when people ask me to play, even for internal school concert back in jc, i would just play and then walk away shyly, lol so lack of confidence.

but anw, was glad that everything turn out fine... all the coaching sessions, being scolded, being nagged at..... all is worth it to showcase a good performance.

I have to move on, next concert coming up on 17 dec, to some of you it may seem very long ahead, but if you were from choir, band, dance etc you will understand the months of hardwork needed.

I am glad I made a lot of awesome friends from piano ensem, the people who always tell me that everything will be okay. Even just moments before going up on stage, they were at back stage giving support to me, telling me to present the best i have to the audience.

Back to sch work.....

no choice but we have to get on with life!!! work is more impt now.

2011-10-09T14:25:00.001+08:00

whoo..... anw recently we're busy with researching cabaret show in bangkok.... trying to get the cheaper deals lol!!!!!

so happy!!!!!!!

can't wait to travel there with my beloved 08S02 :)

2011-10-08T00:25:00.002+08:00

SHOPPING SPREE!!!!

Blue dress with black band, $34.00

Dress with Zebra prints, $15.00

Brown lacy outer wear, $30.00

Dress with black in front and pink behind, pretty right! $32.00

Total damage: dont wanna count them.

I always feel happy after buy new clothes!!!!!!! I work hard and I spend my own money to pamper myself! Feels damn shuang :)

2011-10-07T12:21:00.003+08:00

Read this touching article, I got it from facebook.

A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?" "Because I'm a woman," she told him.

"I don't understand," he said. His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you never will."

Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?"

"All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say.

The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry.

Finally he put in a call to God. When God got on the phone, he asked, "God, why do women cry so easily?"

God said, "When I made the woman she had to be special.

I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world,

yet gentle enough to give comfort.

I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children.

I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining.

I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly.

I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart.

I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly.

And finally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed."

"You see my son," said God, "the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair.

The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides."

Author: Unknown

No wonder sometimes a tear just drop down from my eyes...... although I'm a free thinker, but usually I will turn to God for help when I need it. Sometimes you are just so weak that you need some hope to pull through and survive all these shit.

Anyway, do come and support us for IMAGES by the NUS Piano Ensemble. We have been practising very hard, yes I did at the expense of my mid terms, I'll fail this mid terms but after this concert, I am goanna give my 120% for school work.

Date and day: 11 October,2011 ; Tuesday

Venue: UCC

FREE ADMISSION

Tickets available at door from 7pm onwards. Sitting capacity is 400.

Concert starts at 8pm.

Please come and support! I will be playing a movement from one of Rachmaninov's pieces.

2011-10-02T20:21:00.002+08:00

Blogging is about self-obsession, how true :)

Anw, I had organic test on friday, it was really really bad. I could only do 20 marks out of 100 marks. It's my fault that I did not study as much as I should. After the test, went for coaching, haiis just like every coaching things won't be so smooth. Then went to UCC to have dinner with the comm. I feel very weird that I'm a newbie and all of them are comm members, but then they keep asking me to join them so I just join lo... I shared fried rice with weiqi and yinghong cos I wasn't really hungry but just wanna eat a little.... Then zhiquan, calista, weiqi and I run like mad to catch the 183 bus to clementi cos we couldn't get up after 2 96 buses didnt want to stop at the bus stop opp UCC -.-

Next friday got physical chem test, I am going to study very very hard for this.

Ai Lin must try my very best to get 2nd upper!!! I must do my very best for this sem!!! Jia you!!

Everyone let's study very very hard together!!!!!

2011-09-29T21:23:00.002+08:00

thank God!!!!!

I received an email from main comm saying the I have to skip classes on that day of concert!! Then the first thing that came to my mind was Spec1 tutorial!!!! You all know I damn scared the prof then if someone were to skip his tutorial he damn freaking pissed off. And the stupid thing is he don't let us change tutorial slots -.-

Thank God really!!!! Went to check and my tutorial falls on week 10 instead of 9 so I won't be missing any of his tutorials!!! Other tuts and lectures can miss but then HIS ONE CANNOT!!!!!!

heng!!!!

ok gtg study organic. Tmr got organic test.

2011-09-26T00:49:00.000+08:00

submitted my essay for ssa, don't wanna think about it anymore.

Tired.

nights.

2011-09-23T16:55:00.002+08:00

Today is the last day of recess week... I am screwed as usual, haven't finish studying, lab reports not done, essay not done.

Also had piano coaching today. It was actually okay just that I screw it up, played the wrong note for the first time for this piece and it was during coaching!!!!! Omg i rather i make this mistake at home on my piano and no one cares. I can't screw up anymore, I must do well for this concert so that I can get to perform for the next concert! This concert is quite important because they start to spot people and may be pulled out if we don't play well.

I am not going to let this happen! I will do my best for every coaching!

As for school, I have been procrastinating. I have yet to map modules for SUSEP and I don't have the sense of urgency to do it. I am not sure if I really want it, because I know myself, I will fight damn hard for something I want... Pick auditions for example, I practised 2-3 hours a day just for a audition piece, crazy right? Cos I know this was what I wanted...

Ai Lin must go back to mugging already! I have to just try my best for physical chem, just give myself a chance again and again, just like how I managed to push myself last year...

Quote( from me) of the day: Try your best and don't have any regrets, for you must keep pushing yourself beyond your limits :)

this is the last time.

2011-09-08T21:03:00.004+08:00

Soon after I got pissed off with the engin guy, I got back to my old life and settled back into school..... Then came this guy. He started adding me on fb after we met during one of the frisbee trainings. He started talking to me on fb and then i don't know how he got my number, he started texting me.

It has been like that for the past 2 months.... random texts on some days... usually twice a week. I swear I never initiated a text, he did all of it.

He said things to me like the normal guys would say to the girls. Asking me to take care of myself when he saw me flustering in school earlier in the day.

When guys say all these stuff to you, kind of obvious already.

Until today........ he changed his fb profile pic he took with a girl. This time round, I asked him and he said she was his gf. I stoned a little, as usual.

How the fuck can you tell me things like 'jia you for your performance, I will be there to support you always' and then change to a profile pic with his gf?

you mean you fucking play other girls out after your gf went for exchange 2 days ago?

Guys just irritate my life. I had enough. Enough is enough. I stopped believing in love.

this is going to be an emo shit post. Don't read it cos you'll feel even worst.

2011-09-04T22:27:00.002+08:00

Ok so I am back here to say emo shit.

Recently, many many many things happened. I started my new found cca, trying to fit in into my already crazy schedule.

Haiis then wtf the sec 4 girl keep changing tuition time then I get very pissed off because I am someone who likes to have a fixed schedule and I hate it when my schedule changes.

I am not goanna entertain her request.

I will just continue to put all my tuition on saturdays. She keep asking me to do weekdays but my weekdays is fucking packed with piano.

I am really not confident of myself.

Then tmr is combine prac, I really do not want to go there and throw face. I do not want to play any wrong notes and i really want to do it well once and for all. My partner has an ATCL and it's fucking stressing me up.

Okay you know how stressful it is?? out of the 14 newbies, 2( me and another girl) have grade 8 only, the rest of them are piano diploma holders.

So I pushed myself very hard this week during practice.... cos I have to fight harder to be on par with them.

Haiis then my school work.... omg one mountain of shit to study and memorise.

omg..............

i am forcing myself to do physics and it's something i really can't....... and physical chem is my core and everything is physics. I haven't seen any chemistry in it.................. I do until I cried and I still don't understand physics.

This week has been a very very emotional week.

I must bring out my power already..... the power that helped me from sec sch to enter jc( if you don't know yet only 20 people in my entire school went Jc), from jc to nus(the rate of pj people going to uni isn't that high either). Now, I need this same power to bring me up to 2nd upper class.

The power that I used is no fb until exams. blog only once a week on friday.

Since i managed to refrain myself from fb in jc, and (friendster) in sch school, I must do it again and I can overcome it.

I am goanna force myself and fight hard for piano and 2nd upper class.

2011-08-30T15:16:00.001+08:00

WTF I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!!!

LAB REPORTS DAMN WTF!!!!!

BYE.

2011-08-26T20:40:00.003+08:00

today went for rhythm and structure of music course... teach us which notes to emphasise when we're playing so that we wont emphasise the wrong notes and make the music sound not as nice as it should be...

Piano concert 11 october, at UCC. Free performance for all to come. Yes your dear Ai Lin here will be performing.

Shall share it here only, dont want to post of fb hahah maybe closer to it then post.

tmr frisbee competition from 9am to 6pm followed by xuewen's 21st party at pasir ris.

Organic lab report to do.

sigh.

2011-08-22T22:27:00.004+08:00

Reached home, thought I could chill a little, but it turned out that when I open my email.....

THE SURVIVAL GUIDE TO SURVIVE PIANO COACHING SESSIONS was sent to me.

Awesome.

Reading through it, I felt scared already!

It's quite strict.... I can't wear shorts and slippers to coaching sessions!! Omg even specify the attire.

Can feel the stress already.....

There is no TGIF for me..... every friday got piano coaching and i have to practice my piece before every friday.

OH MY GOD PLEASE LET ME SURVIVE.

I don't know whether to feel happy or sad.

Happy that I got in.
Sad that I officially have no life.

jiayou ai lin!!!!! bye bye facebook, twitter and msn.

not feeling too positive.

2011-08-20T20:08:00.002+08:00

CHUI MAX. Didn't get into choir!
Crossing fingers, hoping to get news from piano.

Alright, coming up this week.
Tomorrow/Sunday: RunNUS 11km! Running with my sis, but only for the first 5 mins! hahaha cos she's so fast I cant catch up with her everytime.

Monday: school, frisbee training.

Tuesday: school from 8am to 8pm. AWESOME HUH?

Wednesday: lab from 10am to 4pm, frisbee training.

Thursday: school, frisbee training.

Friday: school, tuition.

Saturday: frisbee ifg competition from 9am to 6pm, senior's 21st at pasir ris from 7pm to late, prolly 11pm!

Will update next sunday :)

Busy bee Ai Lin

2011-08-17T21:23:00.004+08:00

Okay I tried to stop blogging, but I can't!

This is bad... but okay I have to update.

Through faith and hope, I am in ifg team again! hahahhaha you see, I wanted to get in so badly that time and I wasn't chosen, and I blogged about it in my last post.

So I went for scrimmages training and I got in :D Whoohooo my 2nd IFG :) Mad happy now!
Lol okay la the captain just texted me. So I have to blog about it!

Then OH MY GOODNESS I practice like 3 freaking hours of piano a day. Auditions of friday! Crossing fingers!

Tmr going for choir auditions too!

Will update when exciting stuff happens again :)

2011-08-10T22:46:00.002+08:00

The last post before school starts.

Year 1 sem 1, exactly one year ago, I was a freshie.

Tomorrow is officially the start of year 2 sem 1, I have es every thursday but the tutor says it's goanna start on monday. So tmr will be a free day for me. But to me is isn't, it's still school.

I will not blog at all this sem. As much as I love blogging, I must refrain from it because my priorities changed. The list for IFG Ultimate Frisbee is out and I didn't get chosen because I wasn't in the team last year. Last year I was in IFG Handball team. Everyone in the Frisbee team this year were the players from last year's team.

Yeah you can say they're bias but this is what other faculties are doing. There's no freshies in IFG at all you know..... everyone's so competitive that they're sending all the seniors who took part last year.

But anw I will still be going for training cos there's always scrimmages and I'm hoping I still get to play for the team if anyone drops out. Hahahahha yes i'm evil but I really wanna play in IFG every year.

Anw I've decided to join Piano or Choir. Piano will be my priority. If I don't get into NUS Piano then I will be joining choir. Anw this friday have piano welcome tea.... I'm going for it.

It's goanna be tough if I get in, but I just don't want to lose my roots..... I've grown up with it, with Bach and Chopin's classics, I lost the feeling for the past 2 years, I want to get back the feeling.... That's why NUS Piano will be my priority.

Anw I've drop a student so currently I have 3 Tuition kids....

With school + 3 tuitions a week + frisbee scrimmage training + piano/ choir(if i dont get in piano)

here goes semester 1!!!! :)

2011-08-08T00:56:00.003+08:00

omggggggggggggggggg cant believe NTU goanna start school today!!

My sch goanna start on this Friday and I havent even print my notes yet.

Time to wake up Ai Lin!!!!

Printing notes tmr and start studying!!!!!!!!

No more camp stuffs, no more fun, time to get serious!!!!!!!!!!!!

Goanna limit my crazy facebook time! I must discipline myself because I am the walker of my life, I choose what I want to do, I choose my books and ultimately I am responsible for my results.

The FUN ENDS.

PRINTING ALL MY NOTES LATER.

Ai Lin please mug!!!! No more playing! Year 2 already!

2011-08-02T18:23:00.002+08:00

OMFG! It's 2nd August already......

For the past 3 months, i didnt really do anything, just played and slacked.

Tuesday of week 0, school is starting next friday.

8am lectures... jialat.

My body already used to 4am - 12 noon sleeping time.

8am lectures means I have to wake up at 6am and leave house at 6.30am.

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and I have to start reading my notes liao.

omg.

til i come back again..... maybe during recess week.

to everyone who has been following my blog, thank you very much.

But i will only be back during recess week.

2011-08-01T13:18:00.002+08:00

WHOOOOOO so many events!

On Friday, my cousin, Shawn, and I went to Nihon Mura Kaiten Sushi at Cathy Cineleisure for Sushi buffet!! Should be called Japanese buffet instead. There were sushi, ramen with awesome egg, handroll, free flow ice cream, drinks, sashimi, cream puff etc!! Very worth it. As we are students, we paid the student price of $22.35 each for 5.5 hours of buffet! Shiok right!!!! From 12-5.30pm!

But of course, my cousin decided to sleep and we only started eating at 2pm. By 5pm, I have the feeling of dizziness cos I ate too much and too much sugar rush I guess.... I feel my head spinning in the restaurant lol.

So tip here is: Dont eat too full cos your body cannot take it.

Saturday went to Gloria's Raffles Alumni Chinese Orchestra concert at Singapore Poly with huimin! Gloria is so talented and Im so proud of her! She has diploma in both piano and erhu!! Teaching award holder too, and she was the concert mistress for this concert! Smartass!!! HAhaha this is what I call her and her results in sch is so damn good!

On sunday, I went for TNP lifestyle fitness series - Go Kayaking!! I popped 2 pills of panadol before going cos I was still having fever.

It was so much fun! We went to Jurong water venture to kayak for 3 hours! It was so easy as compared to kayaking in sentosa last December in Sweat Camp.... Cos this is an enclosed area but at sentosa, it was open sea so the waves were very strong.

Oh Am Gee you can see my biceps here?? looks like the gym sessions are paying off :)

The instructor made us stand up on our kayak and sang Stand up for Singapore cos national day is coming -.- but it was so fun standing up!!!! My once in a lifetime experience!

Oh and last sunday, we had UC LOLEX virgin outing at MindCafe @ boat quay. Coming out from exit G/H from Raffles Place mrt, it was quite a long walk along the Singapore River and along the cafes. I thought I was walking the wrong direction cos it was really deep in and I can't find it after walking for 10 mins :x

Anyway this photos were downloaded from Camy's Facebook :D

Jiali, Amethyst and Yixiang!! Why are all the girls so pretty??? I wanna be pretty too :(
LOLEX :DDD
Then we went to have dinner at TCC at City link Mall. John, me, Timothy and Ivan! I'm younger than them even though I'm year 2 and they're freshies :D Hahahahaha.

As usual, Timothy showed us magic!!!!

Alright, that's it! I just popped another 2 pills of panadol and drank honey water. Fever + sore throat.

Tuition at 4pm later! My voice is hoarse now but I still have to work :(

2011-07-28T21:25:00.004+08:00

Just within 3 hours my parents are home, I've quarrelled with them more than 10 times.

For the past one month, just to tell you the truth, I wasn't on the same boat as them.

I didnt have dinner with them because all my mother was interested in is a stupid show called 'LOVE'. If you're a singaporean you should know how ridiculously long this show has been broadcasting since I was in J2, FEBRUARY.

This is so ridiculous that I found it was damn stupid.

Usually everyone will eat alone either in our rooms or at different parts of the house.

Slowly and gradually, I cannot communicate with them anymore.

I started doing my own things.

Usually I report 70% of my things to them since I started uni but things got worst for the past 3 months and I didnt tell them anything anymore because whatever I say, they always have something to say back so I gave up. ESP MY MOTHER.

I just keep quiet and do my own stuff cos when I dont say anything, they wont say anything back also right.

This maybe why my diary is getting quite a bit of abuse from me. I vent out everything through writing instead.

Within 3 hours of them being back, I already shouted and quarrelled with them more than 10 times. Things are so bad I dont want to bother anymore. Which leads to me feeling a stronger want/need to get into hall in school.

This is only one example that I'm stating out. There are like 10 more which I cant be bothered to type out.

My last post I say I going to throw away my clothes before they come back right. Then so unlucky when I came home from school they were home already. I WANNA FAINT. Didnt manage to throw my clothes away in time. For your concern, this clothes are untouched in my closet for 1.5 years already, just not suitable for school. What for keep right and also those that are white already had big patches of yellow spot on them. Donate to people also they confirm dont want it.

Then they saw me taking out one big bag of clothes from my room. Then my mom say ask me to keep it cos it may come back in fashion again.

FUCKING HELL Do you know how much I hate this attitude of hogging???? I FUCKING CANNOT STAND IT.

Keeping everything at home makes the home so stuffy and filled with so many things and I always get headache when I see clutter.

OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!! I WILL FREAK OUT WHEN I SEE CLUTTER.

Then I say nicely, no point keeping already since the white ones already got yellow patches. They say can wash and keep because will get back to fashion again.

OH MY FUCKING GOD I CANNOT STAND IT.

I THREW AWAY EVERYTHING. SHE SAW IT AND SCOLD ME A BASTARD. WTF IS THIS kind of mother??? Scolding your children a bastard??? SO when i say fuck is ok because look at the kind of family i have.
END OF STORY.

2011-07-28T16:20:00.003+08:00

Okay so here is a summary of what i did for the past week.

22nd july, friday: Nua the whole day, tuition at night.
Sat: Morning tuition, then chill the whole day again.
Sunday: morning tuition, then afternoon went to minds cafe, had dinner with UC LOLEX at TCC, city link mall.

Then wenta take bus at 12.15am to Lisa's house because the cab queue was so long, 10 people waiting and no cab came after i stood there for 10 mins. I gave up.

Stayover is so funn!!!!!!!!!! I love her room to the max!!!! so fluffy and comfy and got toilet also :DD

Then i was hungry my stomach started growling. Shit la cos TCC servings damn little.... and I was super hungry after Minds cafe games.... so went to Mac breakfast at 4am!!! FUN FUN Fun but tiring.

Monday wenta school for matric fair, then to Frisbee training at 6-8pm. Went home, straight away aim for my bed =x my body tired like mad....

Tuesday, wednesday (yesterday) - 2 most awesome day of my life. Parents not around so I can lie on the sofa and watch tv the whole day. I did nothing but watch tv and eat.

Today had pre-camp for chemistry. Met the freshie and they will be in the camp from next wednesday to friday.... They are quite alright, more high and excited than my og last year, which is totally dead. HAHAHA oops =x

Tomorrow going to pon SL workshop hahaha my cousin and I going to suki to eat sushi buffet :DDDDDD Whoohooo may our stomach explode!! :))

Parents coming home today.... sigh and the nagging and hogging starts.

Seriously hate their hogging. I goanna throw away the clothes that I dont want before they touch down if not they will keep it again for 1 year in the store =x

I fucking cant stand hogging.

2011-07-21T22:27:00.003+08:00

i got no words to describe how fucked up my life is.

These few days have been eating a lot to hide my feelings......

sigh.

lose weight-gain weight-loseweight-gain weight.

no wonder my weight never goes down.

please take care of yourself ailin!!!!!

2011-07-19T17:21:00.002+08:00

sorry for being mia for so long. I'm back now.

Things got so complicated that i donno how to start. You guys should remember that i blogged about this engineering guy that i sort of think he quite nice and good right. Turned out that during uc my friend told me about the stuff he did to her and i found it ridiculously unforgivable.

Haiis...... Why is this area of mine so fucked up?? Everytime i thought that i met a nice guy, turned out that he is not what i imagined. I am really tired of all these stuff, of getting to know new people, then realised i can clique with them, and then at last to find out from another friend that he was actually a piece of crap.

This process is so draining and tiring cos i had never ever end up with a happy ending.

To be so innocent and naive, to only see the surface and thought he was a great guy, only to realise that he did so many scary and bad stuff to my friend and she told me all these during uc.

Are there even good guys around??????

I am so sick and grossed out.

I am not goanna care about guys anymore. Wake up and live my own life.

2011-07-10T11:44:00.002+08:00

When I lazy of practising, all these kept me going.

2011-07-09T19:11:00.000+08:00

this is exactly what i feel right now!

sick and tired of EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dont care already!!!!

im exhausted now.

2011-07-06T14:47:00.002+08:00

haiis.... after so much procrastination, I need to go into nus websites already.

i haven't sign into nus email for the past 2 months, i didnt go into cors for the past 6 months and module website for the past 6 months.

I am so sick of studying that I drag it until today.

Need to start doing some work already. Holidays are over, Ai Lin please wake up!!

alright. Let's start with exchange.

I really wanna go SEP to one of the UC but i know my parents can't afford it. I was thinking about summer program to UC also but dad made a very good point.

What is my objective of going? is it to clear modules, or to play ( because he knows his daughter so well that she is crazy over American theme parks )

Then I realised the main reason that I wanna go to the US is to play. I have to admit it myself, I already went to all the six flags, disney, universal, seaworld website this holidays.

Yes i'm crazy but i really want to go and play. So I will not be going for any SEP in my uni life.

Which means, I will miss out of the fun that my friends get to enjoy.

So to make my uni life interesting too, I am going to step up! This sem, I am going to join Frisbee for IFG (inter-faculty games) this time will ask for S size shirt hahah my current M size is too big and not fitting at all!!!

Also, I'm going to take initiative and go for choir audition! If everything goes well, I'll have a CCA! I'm quite excited actually, I haven't had any CCA the last sem, I was in NUS Aikido in sem 1.

So, if i get in choir, I will have a CCA! I can't wait!!!!!! Please let me into Choir I really miss vocal training during Sec and JC days!

Then I will be joining 10km Run NUS this year also! My 2nd time! I swear I will join every year, like my sister!

Sat will be my sister's commencement! Quite excited also because I can take a lot of pictures! Hahahahha :)

2011-07-05T00:37:00.002+08:00

The best sentences a guy can say to a girl.

Guys reading this please learn k!!!!!

I gave you my word last time that if i ever piggyback you, I'll make sure that even if I fall, I'll fall front such that i get all the injuries while you'll escape without getting hurt.

And today I gave you my word too that if you lean into my arm at the dance, I'll make sure you won't fall.

how not to love a guy when he says all these stuff to you? Hehehe so guys listen and read my blog lol I'll teach you all these :D

2011-07-01T22:50:00.003+08:00

My Taiwan Meteor Garden craze started today.

my 15th time. Never ever get sick of meteor garden(taiwan version) and Boys over flowers (Korean version) although both storyline are the same just different people acting.

I've watched BOF 8 times and meteor garden 15 times.

Who wanna challenge me????? :D

2011-06-30T21:40:00.002+08:00

wenta cut hair last week lol sorry im too lazy to post pictures.

nice? shorter fringe and cut off about 2 inches i think? hahha

okbye.

2011-06-29T16:56:00.004+08:00

I'm officially out of FB and twitter because I cannot stand seeing the things I dont like to see. Yep you can say I felt left out because so many people are making new friends. Maybe i'll go in after UC when I have more friends :)

Anw went to visit shi on monday and this sunday I'll be visiting her again cos i need to go sch. And since she's in NUH, I'll visit her when I am in sch.

Next monday will be going to NUH also because I have Frisbee gathering for ifg at sch :) Whoohoo another IFG shirt!

From shi, I've learnt to treasure what I have now and also do whatever I want. If I don't like something, I just avoid it and I can spend the time doing things that I want.

Shi's goanna defer from sch for one year because of all the chemo and treatments. ( don't ask me about what happen. I haven't ask her if I can say it out so I want to respect her now.)

So Gloria and I will pass her all our lab reports once we're done with year 2 :) by then, we can help her cos she'll be going back to sch again.

Hmmm I won't change my profile pic on FB because it's taken using shi's iPad kaleidoscope function and the 3 of us will always stick tgt in chem lectures.

Everytime I look at my profile pic I really miss her. She doesn't look like that now cos of the treatments and is kinda weak now.

So I wanna share with you all is, just do what you want and fulfil as many dreams as you can because you never know when something will happen to you.

cheers!!! ( I don't want to end it too sadly )

ok so..... what do i really want?

I want to lose weight!!! who doesn't? My scale is always above 60, the last time I weigh 58 was when I was in sec 1 and my height was 167 lol i went to flip my report book.

in sec 2 I'm already 61 and I was 168, bla bla bla and now I'm 171!

If I can get down to 57, it would be the first time my weight starts with 5 after 7 years!!!!

Okok i must start from now!!!!! My target is 57!!!!! Let me be pretty once in my life, which is now..... I've always felt fat. I want to start living life!!!!!!!!

2011-06-28T21:31:00.002+08:00

I wenta facebook the past few days, everyone has got new friends because of scamp and i didnt go for it.

Suddenly I felt very lonely. Everyone was making new friends, yet I'm at home, rotting and watching youtube during the holidays.

I wanna make new friends too. It's been so long since new people enter my life.

I need new friends!

So I just reached home, I went to the library to borrow a book titled " how to be a social diva " this is exactly the book that I desperately need it now!

I will be slacking for the next 2 days (again).

Friday night : tuition.

Sat morning: tuition, afternoon, tuition.

Sunday afteroon: visit shi, then down to sch for uc.

I will socialise on Sunday! Great!!! :)

I will not make the same mistake as I did in the last pre-camp, which is to stick to people I'm closer with in uc. I'm going to mix around with others also.

I'm glad that my friend text me and psycho-ed me to go. I didn't want to go initially because I feel very sian to go for mass dance. Until now I still cannot get the steps lol!

So I take it that being psycho-ed to go down is a good thing which gives me a chance to mix around.

I'm going to read the book for the next 2 days because there's a section on "socialising skills"

hahaha.

alright, I still love all of you that read my blog. I know who you all cos of blogger stats. I have all your website links appearing there :)

xoxo. Ai Lin loves you all :)

2011-06-22T21:12:00.005+08:00

Alright!!! I'm back :D

these few days have been thinking about a lot of stuff.

hmm okay maybe i shall start off with 'identity' of oneself.

If you're a big size girl like me (171cm/61kg) then the most important thing you should avoid is

ACTING CUTE!!

Acting cute obviously do not work for big size girl because you will just gross people out.

if you're naturally small size and super skinny and pretty..... then you can act cute.

she looks cute even without acting right?

So big girls please dont act cute! cos ppl will avoid you as you are gross.

trust me.... i've tried acting cute (who doesn't????) ok and now i think i'm like shit last time. Now I'm moving to a more 'strong look' and someone with strength!!!Even you're as cute as this little boy..... and if you have my measurements, don't do it again.

anw i was listening to 'love' segment on class95 yesterday night. The DJ was explaining the 'rules of flirting'.

.... and that lead to me thinking about r/s. cos in UC pre-camp there was kinda an htht session and then i started thinking about it again.....

and also last month i had class gathering my JC friends and we were also discussing about r/s.

hmm...... alright maybe you can just read through what i say below but just take it with a pinch of salt ok.

I don't know why but i feel like when girls get attached they lose themselves. When single, girls are very independent. But when they get attached, they kinda start acting like very weak and act like they really need that guy to survive.

This is damn irritating and annoying lor. I don't want to be someone like that..... to act very weak and like you will die if the guy leaves.

I also don't wanna be someone that lose myself. I still want to be 'me' but i can tell you it's very hard to be who you actually are. You sometimes display your good part only to your bf, this is why some marriage don't last even after they dated for 10 years.

Because the girl have been putting on a mask everytime they went out and he only saw her true colours after marriage.

I will tell you it's very hard to be yourself when you're with someone you like.

Sometimes r/s to me is so complex I don't even know how to describe it. Getting into one is so tiring.....

But don't get me wrong. I'm still single and I am not desperately looking for a partner. I rather look at xiaozhu and xiaogui and LMH on youtube. yea I'm weird but celebs appeal more to me than normal guys do.

mad love!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D
.xoxo

2011-06-15T20:52:00.003+08:00

15 june 2011

gosh.... i got 2 denim shorts from forever 21 and they don't fit.

i will lose weight to fit into those shorts!!!!

2011-06-13T10:53:00.003+08:00

you all got see my fb photo not??? Quick go see hahaha i took pic with lee teng! Super happy lol!!! I was looking at him the whole dinner lor cos he so shuai wahahahahaha. Omg. My best best present ever!!! Sitting at same table with lee teng for wedding dinner for my cousin!!

2011-06-10T00:00:00.003+08:00

CRAZY!!!!!!!!
can you get more crazy than this?
1. sec 2 science
2. sec 4 chem, amaths
3. sec 3 chem,bio,a and emaths
4. sec 4 chem

these are the students under me.
teaching so many things... i'm going crazy already.

2011-06-09T13:14:00.003+08:00

it seems so long when you're waiting for something..

but anw im not goanna be a hopeless fool now im goanna pack my whole room today wahahaha.

alright bye!

mom is complaining my room is very dirty and messy, not a typical ai lin room which is super neat.

byebye!

2011-06-09T01:01:00.006+08:00

went out with g and sy today!
i had an awesome time.... didnt catch up with them for quite long already.

anw today i just accept 2 students.

so it brings my total to 4! hahaha but anw money is not the main thing although i work only 8 hours per week and i earn as much as someone who work in office for 6.50/hour, 7 hours per day for one month.

yup go do the math if you want lol seriously it doesnt really matter to me cos i teach voluntary also.... not exactly paid for all my work.

the purpose of teaching others is, i'm fortunate enough to have great teachers in my life so i ended up where i am now. I want to share with others that even if we're from lousy schools, we can still fight and make it. this is what keeps me going, which is to share and prove to everyone that i'm a living example.

anw tmr going tanning!! whoots i love to be dark :)

2011-06-08T00:45:00.005+08:00

if i could ever do anything to my eyes, i would do it. effing hate the shape of my eyes.

anw i haven't blog since i was quite busy the past few days.

friday went to MBS to watch LION KING! I must say, disney is mad awesome!!!!! They do stuff that you cant even imagine omg the whole musical was sibei swee!!!! hahahhaha :D

then monday cant wake up! siao liao cos in UC didnt really sleep my usual 10 hours/night. then i damn late for singing session at top one with hm. omg omg 2nd time already!!!! no more next time. AI LIN WILL NEVER EVER BE LATE. SORRY HM!!!!!!

I will not be late for any events forever.

and then hm gave me stuffs. She so sweet she knows how much i miss cruise and so the whole card was filled with the cruise photo she kope from facebook.

so sweet of her right??? love her manz, cant survive without her :)

then today is tuesday, my dad took leave. woke up at 11am cos i'm so freaking tired from non stop activities since friday.

then i drove to queensway then went to WCP to fly kite.

alright,

tmr I'm going to Novena to meet g and sy for lunch :)

anw i'm still having countless problems with my weight.

everytime i wanna eat, just tell myself, the sacrifices made now will be damn worth it in future. this reminds me not to overeat and keep to my diet and also exercise.

losing weight is so difficult. i dont want to put on those pounds again. regretted.

2011-06-03T12:07:00.007+08:00

Recently I'm quite busy with the camera hahahhaha took lots of photos!
This is goanna be a photo spam!!!!!! OF ME OF COURSE!!!!!!!!

Since my sister started working, I've become the family chef and I cook dinner unless I'm outside on that day la... hahaha.

Some pictures of dinner!!! ALL COOKED BY ME!!!!!!!!

Salmon with onions and some superior light soy sause my dad bought from china. lol!!!!! the sauce looks dubious la but it is very very nice!!!!!!

Broccoli, carrot and garlic!!!!!! this is my 'zhao pai' haha my signature dish!
HAHAHA ok usually i will lie to ppl that i donno how to cook lol. so if they ask me to whip up a meal, i can do it easily and they get a shock HAHAHHAA =p so fun right??? i love to surprise ppl!

I have a lot of pictures but stupid blogger takes me 10 mins to load one photo. sorry to you guys i dont have patience so it will not be a photo spam blog. maybe like 10 pictures only.

up next is my shoe collections!!! you can never have enough....

another pair navy blue also but different texture and design, looks more plastic kind. the above is more like smooth feeling and below one is kinda hard.

I'm really a sucker for navy blue. Although i like pink, but i have a lot of clothes that are in navy blue because of my skin tone.... a little tan due to my love for swimming. HAHAHA. my things, gadgets etc, are pink in colour but clothing and dress up stuff wise, navy blue suits me.

pink office heels because last year i had an office job. lol. hate office heels, ugly like shit!!!!!!

haiis ok im bored already. shall continue this blog post another time. blogger photo uploading sucks.

2011-06-03T01:05:00.003+08:00

yeah people as you all know i am trying hard to lose weight now.

dont say i never share k!!!!!!
this is one really motivating website.
http://undressedskeleton.tumblr.com/beforeandafter

i read online that going to websites on all these will help lose weight faster!!!
so im sharing it with you all :D

when i got other websites i will post it here too k!!!
i desperately need to lose those weight!

2011-06-02T19:02:00.006+08:00

AHHHH im so freakin bored at home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THE BIGGER PROBLEM IS
when im at home i cannot stop snacking on chips.

omggggggggggggggod!!!!

DIE I PUT ON 2KG LE.
siao liao!!!!!!!!

I have to start working out again.

Seriously ridiculous..... how did i gain 2kg since the holidays huh??? wtf.

im going to run everyday. i dont care already. im so fat now!!!!!!!!!!!

alright.
tomorrow- lion king at MBS whoohooooooo it's goanna be awesome
sat and sun- prep camp. hmmmmmmmmm im going with the mindset of making more friends.

monday FINALLY GOING TO SEE MY HUIMIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It has been 6 months since I went top one and sing. you know i wouldnt pull through so many obstacles without her lor, studies and other bitches hahahaha. i always complain to her about those people i hate :DDD hahaha these girls just go die la. the world will be better without you.

then friday goanna meet my girls hahahha shiyun the coolcooolcool soccer lover and gloria wong the busy girl!!!!

sunday is my bday and my cousin's wedding......and everyone's goanna be thinking about the wedding cos it will be at the most atas hotel in singapore..... st regis! no one is going to freaking care about my bday everyone is just looking forward to st regis lor!!!!!! the most expensive hotel ever!!!!!!

im hating everything now..... including myself cos i put on weight. i am goanna fast!!! lol kidding la later die of low blood glucose hahahha. just goanna run!!!! dont care already!

i love lmh!!!!!! why cant you exists in real life????????????? omg i dreamt i was with you! hahahha im siao already. him and koo hye sun and the only 2 korean stars i know lol!!!! i dont bother about the rest hahahah cos i only love 2 of them!!!!!! yes watched BOF AGAIN hahhah my 4th time re-watching it :D

30 may 2011

2011-05-30T07:38:00.005+08:00

i didnt sleep the whole night, i just lie on my bed until 7.30am this morning, and a text came to my phone. The thing i'm quite sad about is that I'm those who is always at the safe range. I wont do better or i wont really do badly. Im always average lor.... I tried so hard to improve yet I'm still at my status quo. Sian right, sometimes you get sian why study harder and getting the same results. My cap is still there and didnt really change. I thought it would go up but it didnt. Ok at least i didnt do badly...... So i should tell myself at least i didnt drop. I shall give myself a pat on the back for this...... Yup thats about it. This closes the chapter of year 1 in nus. I'm glad to get A- for lsm1401 but the B- for organic chem is sad..... So this is what i mean when i say average lor. I have good and bad grades and it evens out.

anw new picture of danbo is out!!! danbo with koi leh!!!!! danbo looks so small when he's with koi hahahah. OMFG WHy is danbo so cute forever?????

but anw, now that everything is cleared. results settled, friendships settled, and the usual once-in-awhile crush thing also settled lol, yup im still single but now i don't have any one i like so i can do my own things and im happy. i shall now take time off social websites and concentrate on the impt things.

1. on my family. i have been neglecting them quite a while. everytime they went out for dinner i would give it a skip cos i was too busy. now that everything else is done. im goanna focus on family and housework.

2. on huimin. sorry to her i cant even celebrate her birthday with her cos of exams. It was her 20th which means moving on to the next decade, leaving the unnecessary troubles behind and take a new step into the next decade. Sorry huimin! 6 june will be our meetup again and i get to sing K with her :D

3. on myself. everytime i go out i feel like i have to put on a mask in front of ppl and that is so not me. im those who say fuck at home and curse at everything lol!!!!! i'm quite chor lor and only my family and huimin knows it! hahhaaaha.

anw facebook and msn and other people's blogs are driving me nuts!!!!! I dont understand why people keep talking about how good their results are like come on la i didnt improve k so please dont just shoot out your words leh!!! think before you talk la..... idiot!!!!!!! pissed off leh.

because of this, I HATE MSN FB AND OTHER PEOPLE'S BLOG!!!!! KNS i'm not goanna go into them anymore!!!!!!!

I shall use these 2 weeks to prepare myself for the next decade!!!!!!!! haha :D

When the next decade comes in 2 weeks, I shall be a new person and be more mature and be an adult. These 2 weeks is enough for me to have lone time and not care about what others do.

I will be back, I can't possibly just leave my blog cos it's been 5 years.

I don't know when I'll be back but once I'm prepared again I'll be back! :-)

2011-05-29T19:45:00.004+08:00

tmr getting results le.... In 12 hours time. Will i be able to pass gem? Haiis..... I resigned to fate already. Perhaps god know uni is not for me, yes im very depress and sad now. I'll leave it to god, like what i did for my past exams..... If i fail, i know already. I shalll kan kai yi dian..... Maybe its just not for me. Prepared to see results asap in case i need to email sch for other options.

2011-05-27T15:59:00.003+08:00

boooo! Reading the lipstick chronicals now hehehe, the content is a lil naughty... But i like :p hahahaha not recommended for kids below 18 lol!!! Ok im weird but i kinda like reading love stories hahahaha but no, me is not finding love atm and currently not thinking about finding love. Kthxbye!!! It says: his defenses had been lowered by six straight nights with her in his bed, and as many days with her occupying his mind. Hehehe and many more sweet stuff inside :-) hahaha okok shall now type out anymore lol if not my blog becomes a website for above 21 only hahaha. Bye!!!

2011-05-25T19:31:00.002+08:00

kns... My com crashed again. i've been using my phone for the past 2 days to go fb, msn and blogger. Siannnnnnnn. I cant even on my com, donno how to save the files inside. Anw i read quite a no. Of blogs recently cos im so bloody free and i cant be bothered to go out cos im too lazy. So i just camp in my room and read magazines and using my phone to go online.... Ah~ this is what holiday to me is everytime. Damn shiok!!!! Only work on saturdays and i have weekdays to meeeee! Hehehe. I dont really care about office jobs anymore, i was thinking do temp job to get better resume. But who cares... To me, enjoying life at home with myself, my soul is more impt than a nice resume. Life is like a coffee... The cup can be nice, high tea cup, glass, plastic, cartoon designed cup, so many kinds of cup, but in the end the coffee inside is still the same. Coffee = life , cup = your qualifications. Get it? Cup can be different but coffee is always coffee that is being offered to us. So enjoy life ppl!!! Dont make yourself so miserable when you cant find a job... Go and enjoy life for you only live once. Do what makes you happy!!!! Dont bother about other ppl :)

2011-05-24T17:28:00.002+08:00

bloody hot! I hate the weather i hate it when i sweat i hate the sweaty clothes i am so irritated i hate everything luckily im going genting next month. Tmd bloody pissed off with the weather.

23rd May, 2011

2011-05-23T18:07:00.002+08:00

Alright, I'm back here to wrap up everything.

I needed sometime to get back to normalcy. The truth is I'm an introvert and everytime I go out, I need some time to revert back.

The past few days was crazy. I let myself loose and sometimes when things get out of control you kinda loose the person you are.

Wed-Fri was genting trip.
Sat, I had 2 tuition. One from 10-11.30am and the other from 2-4pm. I barely had time to recover from the trip and I have to get back to work again. It was hard for the first tuition because it seemed like a month ago the last time I taught him, but it was actually last week. Look what a 3 days trip can do... haha 3 days being out of touch and my normal life seemed unbalanced to me already.

2-4pm tuition was bad too. I lost my temper at her. Usually I will control it but the answers she gave me was so ridiculously out of what I can imagine. I was angry because look, you are taking prelims in 2 months time and you can't even write me a chemical equation. The problem is not that she is lousy. The problem is she is not even panicking!!!!!!!! I raised my voice to wake her up. How can she not panic??? WaLAO if i'm her i'll already be freaked out by this time.

Barely had time to rest again, and went for 10km at ECP on Sunday. I did alright I guess... I ran and jog all the way even though I didnt train for it at all. Glad to join it because I know I will never ever run 10km on my own. The most I ran was 5km and already quite tiring.

Finally I had the time to cool off and rest today.

Everything is back to normal, I need to get myself back on track. Start clearing my room and play piano.

My room is in a ridiculous state I havent even unpacked my bag from genting. Look how introverts like me need a lot of time to reflect and get back to normalcy.

Alright, time to cook dinner. Sis is working now so I'll have to do some stuff at home.

2011-05-21T21:18:00.002+08:00

I'm bored so I started to edit the pictures......... just goanna post some of them. shall continue editing them until i have something else to do.

2011-05-17T16:47:00.002+08:00

OMG I have to wake up at 4.30am tmr!!!!

packing halfway.... almost done.

GENTING HERE WE COME!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOTS!

PLEASE DONT RAIN PLEASE DONT RAIN I WANNA SIT ROLLER COASTER!!!!!!!!!

I love corkscrew ride although its nothing compared to those at Six Flags over Texas.

OH GOD.... LET GENTING BE A SUNNY SUNNY PLACE FOR US :D

2011-05-16T11:59:00.002+08:00

tuition cancelled! She was sick.... Sigh i stayed up til 2am last night to make chem easier for her to absorb. Made notes for her and all my efforts are wasted. Sigh...

I'm still in bed, stoning. Ok i shall get up now, wash my bedsheets and go to the gym!!!

Ps: to you know who you are, i dont deserve what you did to me. Since you are the one who started it, i wiont do anything to get back at you cos its not correct of me, i will ingore you forever and ever and ever. Not goanna talk to you again.

15 may, 2011. Just a typical sunday.

2011-05-15T20:38:00.008+08:00

I went swimming today! Swimming is my favourite cos I am not the running kind and I can't run for nuts.

Oh speaking about running, my dad drove me to school today (because I can't be bothered to take public transport) to collect Alive run 10km omg. What did I get myself into? 10km leh.... omg I will jog and walk and then craw to reach the finish line.

Why did I signed up for 10km???? Pui.... hahaha.

Oh anw all the pictures in my blog are from deviantart.com because they have the best pictures I swear.

Hahaha I really give credit to them! deviantart.com is awesome!!!!
Usually I will choose to swim in the middle of the pool, where there are no wall beside me when I swim.

Because..... I always tell myself I have to carry on as it is 1.8m, if I stop, I will sink.

No matter how cramp my leg is, I continued because it happened twice to me. I have to carry on swimming to reach the 1.4m mark and then my legs can reach for the ground. If I stopped at the 1.8 mark, I will sink.

Sometimes I used my swimming example to help me carry on with life when it gets tough.
So remember, when things aren't going the way you want it to go, tell yourself you have to continue with life no matter what. Then you will soon find the strength in yourself to swim on to reach where you wanna be.

jia you everyone!

(hahaha i know i'm having holidays now but this post is for the people who are still in school, studying hard, preparing for exams, or for office workers who hate their job lol omg what crap am I typing hahaha... oh wells)

oh anw the rainy picture of the cupboard right... the cupboard thing is known as danbo!!!! DANBO IS SUPER CUTE.

Here's another picture of danbo with starbucks coffee!!!!!
and danbo loves hello kitty just like we do!!!cute max!!!!! anw you can go Goggle more pictures of danbo because he is so popular! And all pictures of danbo are cute!!!!!

Ah, one last picture from deviantart.com.

going to have tuition from 9-11am tmr omg tmr i have to teach her trigo! her trigo quite weak....yes i prefer math to chem but i decided on chem because i dont wanna fight with the PRC in school hahahha. anw i must help her manzz.... sec 4 already omg. i am panicking more than her lor....

then after tuition i will be going to the gym!!! whoo!!!!! burn all the fats! hope to get to 58 for my bday :DDDD
-the end :)

2011-05-14T00:38:00.002+08:00

TMD!!!!! blogger is down for like, the whole day ZZZZZ

and they removed 2 of my posts? WTF!!!!!!

I want to move to wordpress already but got so many archive to shift, since 2006 leh.....

omg.

2011-05-12T11:49:00.000+08:00

The weather forecast for Genting isn't looking very good :/

Yup this Genting trip will be another one for me to grow up and be independent. Every trip that I go without my parents makes me grow.

Sigh it shows heavy rain for the day we're going. Sian!!!!!!

Please give us good weather so that we can sit roller coaster!!!!!!!!!

Time to do something! 10 May, 2011.

2011-05-10T23:31:00.007+08:00

I went for a jog today and during my jog i was thinking about what to blog about! Hmm I guess I would talk about current issues. Well not really issues la, but what I've been up to :)

My sister bought masks from Etude House! She says it's cheap and she bought quite a lot and gave me some. Well all of you know Etude House I assume, not forgetting the ambassador for Etude House!

Lee Min Ho! Ok la I kinda like him becau se of his role in Boys Over Flowers. You all already know this cos BOF is the Korean version of Taiwan's Meteor Garden, thus the name of my blog. I refuse to watch the other Korean Drama he acted in, called Personal Taste that everyone told me that I can't miss it.

I see him as Lee Min Ho and Koo Hye Sun so I refuse to watch Personal Taste cos he acted with another girl and not Koo Hye Sun. HAHAHHAA yeah I know I am so unrealistic but this is me.

The poster for Personal Taste, LMH with a girl that I didn't even bother to find out what's her name. Haha. I love LMH and KHS only :D Well if you disagree with me then that's your problem lor. This is called freedom of speech.

Ok back to the mask.

Baby pink nail polish colour also from Etude House! It matches my laptop and my earpiece for my laptop! Sorry for the shitty quality from my hp. Using DSLR is such a pain when it comes to uploading photos. I am very lazy and hence the phone camera.

Current issue #2. For the past week, the piano cover for the piano keys are not close at all. The reason being once it is closed, it won't be open for the next two weeks or so. I am quite a procrastinator and I will keep dragging when it comes to practicing. So I left it open and then when I come into my room I will just sit down and practice pieces. And now I'm thinking about the guitar beside it. I haven't practice the guitar for 3 days already. Yes, feeling guilty now.

The last current issue is about the 3 for $10 wallets from Bugis Street. I bought them because they were so cheap but I realised I'm not goanna use them cos they're so bloody difficult to use. Omg my cards get stuck inside and I have to use my nail to dig my cards out. I gave them to my mom cos she says she help me donate away. Lesson learnt: I'm not goanna buy things cos they are cheap and nice anymore. Totally not worth it la. Might as well I can save up the $10 to buy 3 masks from THE FACE SHOP.

Alright! Hope you enjoyed reading as must as I enjoyed sharing :D Well I've received emails to know that you all read my blog to relax and also emails asking me about other things. I'm happy that I'm able to reach out to you although I don't know who you are. Stay tune for the coming entries!

Post GE day, 14th May 2011

2011-05-08T19:51:00.002+08:00

I stayed up til 3am last night for the General Elections 2011 results. Everytime the results were announced for a GRC/SMC, I'm like... okay lor. Expected what.

It was until the last 2 results, aljunied and potong pasir that was more of an eye opener to me.

When the results for Aljunied GRC was announced, WP won. But... Singapore has lost a very good minister, Mr George Yeo. It's not his fault because people are voting between PAP and WP and not Mr George Yeo against Mr Low Thia Khiang.

I just feel that if Mr George Yeo were to be in another GRC, then he confirm will still get elected for the GRC lor because to be honest some opposition party in some GRCs are not ready. Don't get me wrong, they are good, but just not that ready to represent us in the parliament.

Then the last one, came Potong Pasir. His wife did not win. This time round, after 27 years, PAP is now elected for Potong Pasir SMC.

Sigh.... as for marine parade GRC, I have nothing to say. TPL is MP omg omg. Seriously if I'm staying there I will vote for NSP lor. Nicole Seah is way x1,000,000 better than her. OMG Ms Kate Spade, omg la.... can't even speak properly.

Right. That's all I have to say for GE. Well although I'm 19 and still not allowed to vote, but I'm very interested in it because all my guy friends are voting. (For those not living in Singapore, this is because guys must serve 2 years of NS before getting into University.)

So naturally I will read up on news so that I know what the guys are talking what.

But anw, I just got a tuition assignment! Goanna start this saturday. I'm a little bit apprehensive this time.... IDK why. we shall see how it goes....

A very very fierce fight for this GE. If you were to look at the % of PAP being elected in each GRC... It's like 50+ or 60+ only. 5 years later, I'll get to vote. PAP really have to wake up and listen to the people. If not 5 years later... you should know who am I going to vote for.

2011-05-06T16:15:00.002+08:00

ahhh i need a video recorder to record my pieces so I can show you guys! I practiced Sonata mvt 1,2 and 3 today! hope to get it recorded and posted here :D

anticipate for my video k!!!! Once I record it i will post it here :D

2011-05-03T15:53:00.001+08:00

yeah im camwhoring cos i'm so bored...... hahahhaha :) what an afternoon at home!!! tmr will be going out though~~~~ ok i'll blog more about it tmr :)

Help needed! 3rd May, 2011

2011-05-03T00:11:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone. Today I put on a new pair of contact lenses. This is the permanent contact lens that would last me for 1-1.5 years. In the past I wore monthly disposable ones and so today one was a total different kind.

Then after I put it on i didnt realise it was weird til i was already outside at Sentosa. The beach seemed hazy and not usual so I asked my dad and he says nothing is wrong with the beach. It was in the afternoon so I thought it was the sun ray or smth.

It was until at night when I went out to the streets. I saw rings around every light bulb. The street lamp, the car headlights, the car brakelights, the overhead bridges lamps omg every light bulb had a ring circle around it.

I am looking out of my window and I still see it now.

If you know about this problem please drop a note to let me know what is it alright or do email me. I really need your help. I called the optometrist and she ask me to go down on thurs which is like 5th may. so if you guys know anything about it just let me know now.... Im scared this thing wont go away.

I googled and the rings are known as halo. I'm scared. So I'll be in specs until the halo goes away :(

Shag day, 30th April 2011

2011-04-30T20:24:00.009+08:00

I had steamboat with my bff Huimin last night! We really had an awesome time talking about life. Pictures are at Facebook. I had tuition this morning and then off to Orchard to meet Qiuting to collect our Nike Goddess 5K race pack. It was kinda disappointing to know that there are going to be lots of secondary and jc kids. So Qt and me will be the only adults there with all the little kids? Sorry I just have to call them kids I don't know why. Muahahha.

I shall join adult running marathons next time. I don't like mixing with people younger than me because I want to be as mature as I can be. I love to be an adult and mix with people of my age and older.

I've been dying to write about themeparks. But because of the crazy school schedule, I had to drag until now. Ok for those of you who don't know me, I'm a crazy fan of roller coasters. You can ask Hm how crazy I am when I ask her to go Genting with me because I missed sitting on roller coasters.
Themeparks are so fun because I get to relive childhood memories. Sometimes I wished life was as simple as possible, when I didn't have to worry about school and everyone was nice and kind in the inside and outside. No one had evil thoughts of sabo-ing friends because we were all young.
Sigh, loved and cherished those wonderful days.
I could carry a big smile on my face whenever I sat on rides. Not anymore. I went to Universal Studios last year and when I saw on The Mummy's roller coaster, I could still feel the trouble in my mind. I wish I could let out all trouble into the sky.
If you realised why I didn't include rides like Kingda Ka, because I didn't sat on it when I was young. If you claim you're a themepark fan like me, but you don't know what Kingda Ka is, then please don't tell people you're a themepark fan because you'll appear damn sia shui.

Til next time, cheerios!

Post exams, 28 April 2011

2011-04-29T00:00:00.003+08:00

Recently, probably due to high stress levels, I've been thinking about what to do in future if I couldn't make it through.
This post is about reflection of year 1, how much I've grown from a fresh-out-of-JC girl to ready-to-enter-adulthood. In terms of my perseverance, I've had it grown upscale tremendously.
I can tell you. It wasn't easy. To all kids reading this, don't be so naive. The amount of shit that you will face in life is not the greatest in O or A levels. Year 1 of university was where I saw shit that doesn't make sense and out of the world, yet you have to comprehend them for exams. I know I'm only in year 1 and not fit to say these at all because people who are in year 2-4 or working adults reading these will think that I'm naive. Well I'm still growing and I'm embracing the thought of seeing shitty content and I'm prepared to face it.

My GP tuition teacher told me, university is a good representation of working life. It was the first time in my life that I saw people so hungry for getting As that they did really bad and fucked up stuffs that was beyond my imagination. I never thought human could behave this way, I was taken aback. People at school were so darn competitive that it really makes me sick and disgusted.You have the devils in black which are annoying people I don't like but God was good as he blessed me with new friends that were really nice and kind, they are the angels in the picture. I'm hating those competitive ones not because I'm jealous and my grades are not fabulous As like them. I hate them because of the effects of being competitive, such as sabo your friends and tried to psycho them until they became your slave and trusted you too much that they listen to you about everything when you deliberately told them the wrong stuff. All these so that you will do well for exams and get your A.

I swear, I didn't only see one of these people, I saw about 10.

The way I think changes, no longer trusting everyone is good. I've applied the cliche "never judge a book by its cover" to everyone I meet in school. In the past year, it became apparent that I cannot trust anyone in school. They may seem nice, friendly, kind, those goody 2 shoes.
Behind their pretty facade, their mind is filled of evil thoughts.

Exams were a shocked to me. I still need to be more adaptable, I haven't got used to the chiong-13-weeks-and-exam kind of school. All along I had the mentality of slack-and-chiong-when-exams-comes. To those who haven't start university, a piece of advice from me, week 1 and 2 are not for slacking and getting used to school again. Week 1 and 2 is for chionging for exams.

I totally screwed up this exam. These 3 months, I'm going to spend quite a bit of time on piano. If everything goes wrong, and I failed GEM2900, getting CAP 0, I will just try my best to complete my degree. Then I will go for my teaching diploma after that so I can teach piano. So what I need to do for this 3 months holiday is to brush up on my skill, don't let it rust so when everything fails, I have piano to back me up. I can work in music school after I get my teaching diploma. It's not going to be easy, but at least I've tried.
I wish I had hope when all else fails. Hope is what the human spirit can give itself to have the strength to carry on with life.

Do not ask me about relationship issues. I've mentioned before, that because of all of the above reasons, the world to me is dark and disgusting. Yes I do hope to find someone that just want to get married and not have kids. Obviously I'm a woman and there will be maternal instinct this kind of shit and I really want to have kids. But look at the world, do you want the kid to suffer like you did? If you went through life, and you still want to have kids, well I won't want to comment that you are cruel, just that... well it's your child. Since you want your child to suffer then your problem lor. I really can't bear to see a child(my child in this case) to go through all the shit that I went through, I have enough of the world, shall just die next time and no future generation have to suffer anymore.

That's all I have to say. Ending off with one of my favourite songs, Michael Jackson's Human Nature.

2011-04-15T21:17:00.002+08:00

how can you not love talented kids that wow you???? =D

in times of stress... extreme high stress, enjoy :-)

2011-03-25T14:14:00.006+08:00

Giving out freebies!! Hey dearies i am packing my wardrobe and i have 2 skirts to give away. who want just tell me ok if not i donating to salvation army already. It's from cotton on and i got it 2 years back for $10 each but i wore the flower one twice and the purple one i didnt wear it before. so i'm giving you $20 worth of skirt leh!!! LOL.

its short enough to show your sexy legs so quick email/text/msn/ FB whatever to get it from me. I'm happy to give it to you if not i goanna donate to salvation army le.

Purple one!!

Looking through old photos today... i miss my sec sch times a lot...

when neoprints were cool...
when yiling loved to doodle in class...
when qiuyan and i met on weekends at sunshine place to chill...
when carrying the green chemistry file around school was the 'IN' thing, only ms chew's class carry green chemistry file everywhere to study chemistry because she was such a great teacher and we dont want to disappoint her...
when i first got my camera phone and went to yisiew's house to try it out...
when we were so interested in BGR stuff and stalked rachel with her 'stead'...when liangle came to my house to play after school...
when i had someone to take bus with me home...
when huimin and i went shopping after school at the super small lot 1 before it expanded to what it is today...
when jenneth and i spent time together after music lessons....
when camera phone became 'cool' and everyone started trying out different effects on the phone...
where going out and taking neoprints were the 'IN' thing to do...
when i met my primary school friend, nydia in my chinese class and jen who was my music friend...
when jocelyn loved to draw on the whiteboard during recess...
when qiuyan came to my house to watch high school musical... high school musical was a big thing then...
when we camwhore more...
when we loved the toilet...
when adeline bought us same bracelets from turkey...
when i was in choir...
when bio practicals were fun and not stressful...
when i went to jenneth house after music lessons...
when adeline was sitting beside me in class...
when we loved taking photos...
when we camwhore in class when the teacher is not around...
when taking pictures of canteen food was fun...

sadly, our school didnt do well for o levels and only half of my class could make it to jc.. but most people went to poly and everyone lost contact. Yisiew and huimin and the only 2 secondary school friends i left :(

they say, after 5 years if you don't talk to the person face to face, he has already become a stranger. next year will be the 5th year since i saw my classmates, totally strangers... sometimes life is like that.

we do not need to have too many friends, but we need to have at least one best friend.

2011-03-24T20:09:00.001+08:00

After all the crazy labs and tests.... look at my panda eye bags.

so ugly!!!!

sat, 19 march

2011-03-19T13:07:00.006+08:00

Ain't this picture lovely? I got it from devianart(http://alephunky.deviantart.com/).

Sorry friends for being MIA for so long from here because it was as usual, a crazy week at school!

Monday - fms presentation

Tuesday - bio lab

Wednesday - inorganic test

Thursday - organic lab and bio assignment 2 due( i did very badly for it. results are out)

Friday - finally get to see my 08S02 dearies after a crazy week~!

So let's see what it coming up next week.

Today - bio assignment 3 and organic lab report, gem2900 CA due, master organic chap 12

Sunday - memorise bio and self review test and master organic chapter 14. Research for chem lab on thurs.

Monday - organic tutorial must be done and memorise inog group 1-13 elements

Tuesday - master organic chapter 16,17 and tutorial and self review questions due.

Wed - memorise bio and gem 2900.

Thurs - chem lab(FINAL LAB FOR YEAR 1!!!! DAMN EXCITED TO END LAB, I CAN'T WAIT)

Friday - chem lab report.

With such a busy week ahead..... I will update you guys again next friday to tell you about it alright.

ps: sometimes i still miss you. The picture i found was partly because i kinda miss the times when we were tgt. Sometimes i really want to get back, sometimes i don't think it is possible. sometimes i cant go fwd cos i'm thinking of you. sigh i didnt know i would get into such a mess in love... i failed terribly in the love circle. seems like God make it this way. You cant be good at everything... God gave me great teachers in life but he didn't give me a talent in love. Life is full of uncertainty. whatever comes.... we shall see:)

2011-03-18T13:06:00.002+08:00

Sigh.... sometimes i need to control my 'loudness' as in not divulging too much stuff that i know..... sometimes because of my talkative nature and loudness i get myself into trouble and people to hate me.

i need to tone down a little and stop being such a whiny and loud and stop talking too much..

I have to tone down from now... just shut up and do my work and stop talking crap and rubbish to people.

Just shut my big mouth up.

I don't care who is going to read this but i just blog my feeling out that i usually wont say out..... just my thoughts. so i totally dont care if anyone is reading this... it is just for my self improvement. Ai Lin, time to shut up and do work.

finals in 4 weeks.

2011-03-03T20:35:00.002+08:00

Yeah my bangs are growing quite fast! haha 2 weeks ago i had it cut until my eyebrows... =)

anw today had organic test... haiis i am so dead.. not goanna talk about it.. prepare to fail.

then went for lab. WP was my TA in charge omg omg!!! WP is so shuai when in lab and he looks cute when he smiles! :D So happy ahaha i went to him to ask him help me sign my data sheet.... dont feel like passing it up leh cos got his signature on my paper lol!!!!!!! :D

omg why are you so cool and shuai and cute and smart at the same time????

2011-03-01T23:32:00.002+08:00

I was looking through some old photos, in the midst of midterms, i donno what will be the result.. i dont really care anyway cos my threshold has already been reached. hahaha currently waiting for my bangs to grow.. love my old fringe, hate my bangs. cos i wanna look like an adult and long fringe will kinda show my independence lol... bangs seem like a child so i hate it. hahaha.

25, Feb

2011-02-25T22:06:00.004+08:00

Wow what a week!! Here for updates!

Sat- went to sch to study after tuition :D

Sun- went to cousin's baby first bday at RTC.. the food was awesome ahaha eat until very full!

Mon- slack at home. didnt study.

Tues-went to school and mug.

Wed- went for physiotherapy for my knee. There is a muscle tear in my knee haha... bad bad bad.

Thurs- went swimming!!!!! 10 laps ahha. But it was thursday that i realised that I cant qualify for NUS Biathlon cos 50m took me minimum 3 minutes! Their cut off was 2 minutes! Haha time to learn some free style to save myself and next time can join biathlon also!

Fri- slack at home, didnt study. and today i think i did a very brave thing. I WITHDREW FROM SCIENCE CAMP! Actually there are 2 main reason, with one being private the other is official. Yeah you already know how transparent I am on my blog so I shall tell you.

Firstly, the official one being in case, i mean IN CASE i get into internship, training dates clashes with SCAMP, SCAMP is from 20-24 June and internship training is from 21-23 June. Haha but srsly i hope i get it la... internship is always better on resume than being in a social camp.

Secondly, they put me in a OG that have people i hate.. not that i wanna be bitchy but they 2 are those type that no one like. haha i will never be in the same group as people i dont like :D They will suck up to guys and flirt. hate this kind of shitty people. Why would people want to cheapen themselves and choose lust when God built us as a worthy person? Hmm... Although I am free thinker but sometimes you just have to believe in the lord when you know that certain behavior is totally unacceptable.

tmr- tuition and huimin coming over to cck to perm hair! hahaha. then i have to go to school ZZZ

Yup this is how i spent my recess week. I don't think i have time to FB and blog next week.. so many test coming up!

til i see you, bye ppl! :D

smiles :D

2011-02-23T22:43:00.005+08:00

huimin please quick come over my place on saturday.... i really miss you manz and i have so much to complain to you.

i hate school i hate exams i hate my life i hate everything now.......... sigh.

i wanna talk to you!!!! saturday please quickly come i miss huimin so much....

as the saying goes... you no need to have many friends, but you def need to have at lease one who understands you. thank god for huimin!!!!!

i text her yesterday in the library when i am so sad cos of school then she cheered me up..,. i love you manz!!!!!!!!!!

saturday please quickly come please i wanna see her!!

I chanced upon a photo of us taken in sec 4.. after O levels. Wow time flies... I was who I was and I had the motivation to fight for O levels and A levels... but not now =((

Ai Lin come on... I have to try and give my best... I know I can. "You never know until you try" Yes I can do this one more time... just once this sem. I can....

oh last week i took this picture of the sky from my window... is it nice? please give comments haha i wanna improve my photography skills.

quitting FB.

2011-02-21T11:35:00.002+08:00

I have realised how scary FB is! Omg there are so many applications to determine who stalks you and your photos and your friends. OMG OMG. Before I get caught by another friend who I am stalking, I better quit!

Initially it was a social website to connect with friends that I cant see often because of school, but now it is a platform for people to showcase their family, life, r/s, bf, gf, crap and rubbish that they do. And there are actually people interested in what crap their friends are up to.

Don't you have better goals in life/ things that must be done?

I quitted FB and I'm left with twitter, blog and msn!

One social network down, the only one left will be blog. I've quitted msn too. I go to twitter once a week!

I cant quit my blog omg it has been with me since Sep 2006.

living in a city that requires lots of money.

2011-02-18T23:53:00.005+08:00

Recently I realised that the $ i earn just flew away. I decided to start calculating....

This week i spent 8.5 on food, 13.15 on transport. wtf 13.15 a week for transport is damn ex.

total 21.65 this week, ok take 22, in a month is about 88 le!!! and then printing + photocopying notes and readings is 10 a month.

98... okay round up to 100.

I earn only 200 a month from tuition... 100 is necessity.

living here is super ex.......

now i know where my money goes.....

and cos of my CCA, i injured my knee and my joint, i have to go for physiotherapy next wednesday... another $40 from my pocket. haiis i dont wanna ask from my parents cos i have to take responsibility for joining the CCA and getting myself hurt... so no more CCA for me. so this month i only have freaking 60 bucks left!!!!!!!!!!!!! sigh...... singapore is damn ex to live in... transport is ridiculous.

cant wait for 3 months break so i can work and save more money cos next time want to go holiday.....